f. Iregret

I regret ,I regret ,again and again ,four days back I spoke with a very school teacher that I worked with ,I needed referecene,for the work I did with her,while talking to her she asked me about my life and kids and God I just exploded like an erupting volcano,just emotions and feelings and more just started to flow from the deepest ravines of my heart ,I kept on talking and talking like possesed until she suddenly stopped me ,by saying Gedi I heard nothing of what u said talk slow and clear .One thing she told me was do u have contact with ur kids? I said no,Then I felt like it was all my fault that I dont have a connection or contact wirh my two little daughters,.I took up my phone with all the energy I could master and called this what would I say stupid ,ignorant,would I say womman or mother to these kids ,what ever I called her ,she took up the phone ,said hello ,I told her who I was and that I wanted to talk to my daugters ,she just hung up the phone,so I regret that I ever called her,it is a nightmare,she just doesnt realize what she is doing to the kids she is firmly,into brainwashing them by keeping them away from their father,Idont know what all that would result,but I know that it is nothing positive for the kids