fading hope

Hope is fading slowly away ,these little kids that i some how thought would fight for ,are gone for ever from my heart ,it was afterall an illusion that their mother and her racist parents and sisiters would somehow ,understand and that these little kids have a right to know their father,but no,now I know better becouse I doubt that ,they afterall are not my own blood,I am not perhaps,their natural biologic father,I just ,maybe,happened to be there ,at the,wrong time.I could not find any logic reason in my mind ,why a mother would hurt so much her own kids ,and expose to them so much suffering as to keep them away from a father that is willing to give love ,and caring to them,maybe she has bigger things to hide ,maybe it is correct that they are not mine,I am exhausted of the whole thing,let her live with her secrets.as for me I am done with that.let bygoens be bygons.

fading hope

Hope is fading slowly away ,these little kids that i some how thought would fight for ,are gone for ever from my heart ,it was afterall an illusion that their mother and her racist parents and sisiters would somehow ,understand and that these little kids have a right to know their father,but no,now I know better becouse I know that they afterall are not my own blood,I am not their natural biologic father,I just happened to be there at wrong time.thank God they are not mine,I am gradually filled with hate,for all they represent