fading hope

Hope is fading slowly away ,these little kids that i some how thought would fight for ,are gone for ever from my heart ,it was afterall an illusion that their mother and her racist parents and sisiters would somehow ,understand and that these little kids have a right to know their father,but no,now I know better becouse I know that they afterall are not my own blood,I am not their natural biologic father,I just happened to be there at wrong time.thank God they are not mine,I am gradually filled with hate,for all they represent