No progress

Same old story,things are not improving,As soon as I etablished contact with my kids and thought now I would be able to hold some form of a father daughter relationship with them ,it all stopped up,becouse I sent a web cam in the hope of seeing them in live chat,.strange as it it is their mother stopped to either contact me or answer to my phone calls,now it seems to me hopeless to continue to try to make her understand that it is to the best for the kids and me to maintain a good parent relationship,she defintley decided that the should grow up as white norwegians and adopted to her parents.I cant help except leave them for ever if she would have them that way let it be.I am shocked,exhausted ,and helpless.God bless my little daughters for me they are lost forever 

it is not often now that I feel the urge to write ,anything at all ,becouse it somhow feels like a repetition of of the same thing and some how it gets boring to write about the same things all over and over again,I for one dont like repetitions,it just kind of drains my energy ,iwill just load up pictures of my lovely little daughters Evelyn her first school day ,eavelyn with her lttle sister mariana

It is always difficult,to make a choice ,and unfortunateley we always have to make choices,some times the wrong ,some times the right choices ,but what the right choice is ,is always controversial,for what is right for a given society could be wrong for another,it has always been like that and it will always be like that ,there is no absolute truth,never,reality is an illusion,and ilusion is nothing more than temperary,as a consequence there is nothing that is real ,for reality in itself is an illusion,like my granfather put it when he was 96 years old ,listen carefully to your heart,close your eyes and listen one more time to your heart ,follow your heart ,it is the source of your illusuion and reality,the source of pains,agonies,joy,and ,happiness,look no furher,than your heart ,and move on with the current in life.ijust have to top,emotions are followig

Beutifull things all the way

It is all so strange not real ,could it be some sort of a dream ,or a fantasy for that matter, talking to Evelyn was some how a strange feeling ,her voice kind of ,woke up some deep totally ,alien emotions in me,an echo from so far away,and then it couldn't be a dream ,because she Evelyn invited,her sister and my second daughter to the phone Marianna,and God I suddenly got into a reverie,kind of day dream.Time would tell every time I start talking about my daughters my tears start runing burning my eyes hot tears I just have to stop it. Omar dhuule an old friend of mine is for now on a visit to me he is here by my little apartment , let me just stop it here.I will definitely write more tomorrow.

What aday

First I get a new jobb on topp of the one I have now and hillevi The mother of my very beutifull shinnig always and ever prety girls call me ,and lets me talk to Evelyn,Icall it a day,my deepest wounds are halve healed,my little Evelyn said she is going to send me a drowing I look forward to that ,as it turned out ,and some how I felt it that ,hillevi was the perfect mom for the kids,let bygones be bygons ,che sara sara ,the most important for me at this moment is that the kids and their mother are happy and in a very good shape .My agonies and pains ,for the the past two years are a little bit alleviated,time will ,I love them as I always did .I will keep contact with them where ever I am and when ever I can,it is getting a little bit late now and I just have to stop duty is calling tomorw I will be off to work at six so ,Iwill resume some other time.

Finally

I have just been talking to my kids and by God it was so encouraging ,it was so beutifull,so sweet ,so lovelely,I cant describe the feeling in words ,it is overwhelming,nothing could cover, no words ,no expressions ,not even pictures could translate,the moment of joy in talking to hillevi and evelyn ,and mariana,Ihope the best for them ,as i always did ,but specially tonight,I am off to work earlly ,tomorow,so Iwil resume ,after I am finishied from work

f. Iregret

I regret ,I regret ,again and again ,four days back I spoke with a very school teacher that I worked with ,I needed referecene,for the work I did with her,while talking to her she asked me about my life and kids and God I just exploded like an erupting volcano,just emotions and feelings and more just started to flow from the deepest ravines of my heart ,I kept on talking and talking like possesed until she suddenly stopped me ,by saying Gedi I heard nothing of what u said talk slow and clear .One thing she told me was do u have contact with ur kids? I said no,Then I felt like it was all my fault that I dont have a connection or contact wirh my two little daughters,.I took up my phone with all the energy I could master and called this what would I say stupid ,ignorant,would I say womman or mother to these kids ,what ever I called her ,she took up the phone ,said hello ,I told her who I was and that I wanted to talk to my daugters ,she just hung up the phone,so I regret that I ever called her,it is a nightmare,she just doesnt realize what she is doing to the kids she is firmly,into brainwashing them by keeping them away from their father,Idont know what all that would result,but I know that it is nothing positive for the kids

It is very cold today,I woke up in the morning after my usual shower,and coffe,I opened the windows and God it is too much snow ,the whole looks white,People complain about the autmman dark, for me it is really cold winters that get me into not exactly depressed,but in avery bad mood.It reminds me of MY country and the city,Igrew up in,Mogadisho,it is always mid temperatures,and even when it is hot ,the fresh breeze from the Indian ocean cools it off.It leaves my heart sad

Life goes on and on

I dont often write may be becouse Iam scared of my thoughts,or may be it is hard to admit to the fact that I am on my way to a loss,I had a freind from childhhod ,he always used to say that God the Almighty does not take u abruptly,or may be He does to some peaple ,If he does not do that then He the almighty is goeing to take u slowly ,smooth,and ,painfully,well I heard that this freind of mine is dead long time back now,But I dont even know why I came to that now ,but May be it is becouse I am ,gradually losing ground,I lost lots of times of Life ,and mannaged to come over that,but now it seems harder than ever that I lost my little beautifull daughters ,I can never never never forget them ,but I realize that I have to just give against my wish.

Rain again and the same old story

I am not getting any luckier it seems I am stuck up with this pain,not so long ago I decided to take ashort trip to Horten That is where my two little kids live,I thought,Icame over the turbulent days of my life and could possibly face,visiting the kids ,but as I approached the village ,my heart felt like being squeezed,my blood preaure rose to heights,and I could feel the rush of adrenalin into my body,my God I started to sweat all over my body though the temperatures were,under one degree cellisus,It felt like I was going to faint.I hurreiedly went into a bar sat down and tok a glass of water,I was really struck by panic.Isat there for a while as Irecollected, myself, and started to gather my energy.I then called afreind that drove me quickly away from Horten to ,Tønsberg where I spent the over in couch in his small cotage,Icould not sleep that night.It was very horrible to be so close to my kids and not visit them.Becouse of the agony that their bitch of amother caused me using the kids in a conlict,she is in my eyes a monster,so selfish ,and ruhless,that she is blind to pain that she is causing her kids a painthat would be difficult for them to recover from,making them a fatherless kids at times Iit crosses my mind yhat afterall they are not propbly my children for how could she otherwise wnat to have them only for herslf when she knows and I pointed out that Ilove my children to me it is and will always remain amystery ,I can understand that she wnts to enjoy the benefgits of a singel mother,and get much money but weighed aginst the childrens loss of theire father,she would be the ultimate loser,and the kids too.Well I am just so upset I can not continue I am shaking with rage,every I start either talking or writting about my deep feelings my whole body starts to burn, it is as if though wild fires are raging through me.well che sara sara I think I will have to give up and surrender,console myself, and accept destiny. my

ANOTHER DAY OF MY LIFE IN BERGEN

I dont even know what to write about I am to put it in a mild way fucked up ,I just woke up from a deep sleep, happy and in a deep ecestay,about my health ,strange perhaps for you or any body else for that matter,but it is a reality so big and important to me ,the small things that one takes for granted in their lifes could be the most important things in life,Iam so happy just so happy and happy

a teardrop in my eyes nothing new

I keep on crying it is nothing new about that it just goes on and on some how endles

gedi in Bergen 

A nice day

I am tired emotionally ,exhausted and devestated,Ihave tremendous difficulty concentrating,I want to write so much I have so many things going through my mind,but I dont find enough the,energy to put it down in paper.But let me start by talking about the weather,becouse that iswhat we generally start talking about when we dont know where to begin a conversation,well it was avery beutiful spring day i Bergen ,about 15 degrees centigrade.Abeutifull sunshine,Itok avery long walk through the streets in Bergen ,which avery small beutifull town full of flowers.

BlogThis! Spring in Bergen Sunday, April 17, 2005 In the blue mood posted by fiicanow at 9:15 PM 0 comments Friday, April 08, 2005 well another in my life posted by fiicanow at 1:43 PM 0 comments Spring in Bergen BlogThis!Spring in BergenFriday, April 08, 2005In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learningBlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.-->posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousIn a blues moodgedistill learningGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwayArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 1:08 PM 0 comments In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005 gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learning BlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005 Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergen I just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later. posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005 Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in Bergen Iam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,co posted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005 Iam experimenting on sending pictures gedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005 Bergen norway It is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality. posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments About About Me Name:fiicanow Location:Bergen, Hordland, Norway Iam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching project View my complete profile Links Google News Edit-Me Edit-Me Previous In the blue mood well another in my life Spring in Bergen In a blues mood gedi still learning Gedi in Bergen Rainy day in bergen gedi Freinds in Bergen Archives February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 New This is a paragraph of text in the sidebar. -->

Only a minnor wrong medical diagnosis

Today I had the best news of my life in the past two years Ihave been to a medical check up to my doctor and what a delightfull news I got form him I have not aheart infarction a diagnosis that has been hanging in my neck for the past two years .I can not understand how reckless doctors could be in making so big mistakes causing so much misery and pain in someones life.If you ever experienced such grave mistakes please be my guest and share it with me.I feel so devastated after all the anxiety,fear,and agony I felt,only because I was under a heavy pressure from the abrupt disintegration of my life .I got the wrong diagnosis to make matters worse BlogThis! Spring in Bergen Sunday, April 17, 2005 In the blue mood posted by fiicanow at 9:15 PM 0 comments Friday, April 08, 2005 well another in my life posted by fiicanow at 1:43 PM 0 comments Spring in Bergen BlogThis!Spring in BergenFriday, April 08, 2005In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learningBlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.-->posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousIn a blues moodgedistill learningGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwayArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 1:08 PM 0 comments In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005 gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learning BlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005 Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergen I just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later. posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005 Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in Bergen Iam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,co posted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005 Iam experimenting on sending pictures gedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005 Bergen norway It is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality. posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments About About Me Name:fiicanow Location:Bergen, Hordland, Norway Iam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching project View my complete profile Links Google News Edit-Me Edit-Me Previous In the blue mood well another in my life Spring in Bergen In a blues mood gedi still learning Gedi in Bergen Rainy day in bergen gedi Freinds in Bergen Archives February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 New This is a paragraph of text in the sidebar. -->

Only a minnor wrong medical diagnosis

Today I had the best news of my life in the past two years iIhave been to a medical checkupto my doctor and what a delightfull news I got form him I have not aheart infarction a diagnosis that has been hanging in my neck for the past two years .I can not understand how reckless doctors could be in making so big mistakes causing so much missery and pain in someones life.If you ever experienced such grave mistkes please be my guest and share it with me.I feel so devastated after all the anxiety,fear,and agony I felt,only becouse I was under a heavy preasure from the abrupt disintegration of my life .I got the wrong diagnosis to make matters worse BlogThis! Spring in Bergen Sunday, April 17, 2005 In the blue mood posted by fiicanow at 9:15 PM 0 comments Friday, April 08, 2005 well another in my life posted by fiicanow at 1:43 PM 0 comments Spring in Bergen BlogThis!Spring in BergenFriday, April 08, 2005In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learningBlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.-->posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousIn a blues moodgedistill learningGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwayArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 1:08 PM 0 comments In a blues mood posted by fiicanow at 12:42 PM 0 comments Thursday, April 07, 2005 gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:04 PM 0 comments still learning BlogThis!Spring in BergenWednesday, April 06, 2005Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergenI just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later.posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in BergenIam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,coposted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005Iam experimenting on sending picturesgedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005Bergen norwayIt is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality.posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments Thursday, February 17, 2005bergenIam here in Bergen still confused after the breakup,that costed me my two beutifull daughters,it is very hard to admit to the fact that i perhaps lost them for ever, i will come to that later,but now i have to hurry up to workposted by fiicanow at 12:55 AM 0 comments AboutAbout MeName:fiicanowLocation:Bergen, Hordland, NorwayIam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching projectView my complete profileLinksGoogle NewsEdit-MeEdit-MePreviousGedi in BergenRainy day in bergengediFreinds in BergenmSpring in BergenIam experimenting on sending picturesBergen norwaybergenArchivesFebruary 2005March 2005April 2005 NewThis is a paragraph of text in the sidebar.--> posted by fiicanow at 3:56 AM 0 comments Wednesday, April 06, 2005 Gedi in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 7:35 AM 0 comments Rainy day in bergen I just want to try out this ,since Iam quite new to blogging,Iwill write more later. posted by fiicanow at 7:26 AM 0 comments gedi posted by fiicanow at 7:13 AM 0 comments Sunday, April 03, 2005 Freinds in Bergen posted by fiicanow at 8:57 AM 0 comments mSpring in Bergen Iam still in Bergen,nowdays i dont feel so happy,afterbeing totally deatched from my two little daughters ,my heart is in a very deep agony andpain,pictures of their beutifull smiles keep going through my my\ind like sequence of a flash light,Idont know if someday Iwould be able to recoverfrom this deeply felt injustice to me and to my little kids,they say time heals wounds to the soul Iam not sure but defenitley one learns to live with it,Iam gradually learning.When the winds wereblowing hard,winds of betrayal,disappointment,hatred,hoplessness,co posted by fiicanow at 7:51 AM 0 comments Saturday, April 02, 2005 Iam experimenting on sending pictures gedi posted by fiicanow at 10:55 AM 0 comments Monday, March 07, 2005 Bergen norway It is a very nice day today it not raining ,and no snow at all,as it is I amquite new to the idea of giving away my personal life but i am gradually learning to getused to the new hard reality. posted by fiicanow at 3:57 AM 0 comments About About Me Name:fiicanow Location:Bergen, Hordland, Norway Iam trained medical doctor now engaged in a teaching project View my complete profile Links Google News Edit-Me Edit-Me Previous In the blue mood well another in my life Spring in Bergen In a blues mood gedi still learning Gedi in Bergen Rainy day in bergen gedi Freinds in Bergen Archives February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 New This is a paragraph of text in the sidebar. -->